Southern Legitimacy Statement:
I was born in Oak Ridge TN; my family were a mix of Indiana corn farmers and New England teachers, and my folks were in Oak Ridge because my Dad was a physicist who worked at the labs after WW II. We moved north to Cleveland when I was two, and then to Massachusetts when I was twelve, but some summers we would go back to Oak Ridge, drive the Blue Ridge Parkway and I understood the Appalachians stretched from Georgia to Maine, and that when I was in the Berkshire Hills, a long way south the same ridges fell away towards the shore.
I started back south when I went to UVA, a place more blueblood than Southern if you ask me. My son was two. When I finished my course work I moved south to Durham NC, and I’ve lived in Durham since, fifteen years now, longer than I’ve lived in any town, and I don’t see myself moving soon. My son graduates from UNC this spring, and when we met my wife’s relatives (who live in Oak Ridge) and had some barbecue, her step-grandfather watched my son eat and said “Well, he’s a southerner. I like the way he looks you straight in the eye.”
When I’d lived in Charlottesville, which never felt like home, I kept having a dream I was back in the Connecticut Valley, spinning around the streets of an old mill town, so happy to be under that sky—ecstatic really—and then I’d wake up, and while it was grim to see I was in Charlottesville, I was also glad, because there is no going back in life.
And then, when I moved to Durham, I suddenly felt that what had been happening was that I’d been dreaming of a future town I was going to live in, but had had to use the only image I had then to say it, that old town I’d left and wasn’t going back to.
Somehow Durham looked right, all its shambling and mix of houses, and red clay. And maybe its because the same people—Scots and Scots-Irish settled here as settled in Western Mass—and so there was the same practical approach to things. A lack of pretense and getting about things, and a bit easier too, winters without hats and camilias in December.
I came here to put a root down; I’d been sick throughout grad school and I’d spend my first four years here disabled, but the root took. Ground—stubborn, surprisingly generous red clay—let that root drop deep, then way tap roots do. This is the place I’ve healed and where my work’s begun, and where my son’s become a man.
In July and August, we’re blessed by another alien that’s flourished—crepe myrtle—throwing its color out spectacular despite the heat as if to say “it doesn’t stop blooming, it doesn’t stop”, and it is a satisfaction to see that.
And then I think back to one of the first nights we were here. I was driving with my ex-wife and we got lost and turned around. I was looking for signs and it was June and I saw a tree with thin frond-like leaves and pink tasseled blooms, and I pointed to it—I’d never seen one before, and I am not a botanist—I pointed to it and the name just sprang to my tongue, “That’s a… mimosa.”
And so something about me and who I was was recognized.